Don't know if anyone remembers me at all in any positive light, but it's wild to me how much of this place sticks in my brain despite only really being active here for about a year. I joined here around 2008 when I finally had internet in my area off of some fun memories of MChat when I lived at my uncle's house around 2001 or 2002-ish? Everything I posted here was awful and was basically an attempt to be accepted, liked, and "cool" or whatever despite how lame I was, and I was often appropriately called out for how stupid I was acting much to my own embarrassment at the time (which in the long run was probably good for me).
It's now 16 years later, but I feel a lot more comfortable in my lameness (in a good way). Somehow managed to graduate from a decent university in my area, making a lot of good friends there, and spent a while of my life after graduation jobless or as a janitor before finally landing a job as a sysadmin, which is where I've been at for the last seven years or so.
Personally, struggled with a lot of mental health ##### most of my life along with major weight issues which, after a serious, serious health scare a couple years back, I'm now finally somewhat getting on track with, being about 60lbs lighter than I was last year with a lot more to go, but the important thing is that I seem to be keeping what I lose off.
I definitely relate to a lot of the stuff in here about being a work in progress. Feels like everyone I knew from high school or college has some extremely successful career or marriages, but I'm just now working through ##### everyone else did when they were 18 or 19. There's a lot of times where I don't really feel like an adult until I do something where it's like, "Oh, yeah, I guess I am a semi-competent individual."
Ultimately, I don't really think you ever stop being "a work in progress". There's always something to do or improve on, and in many ways, I think a large part of my own progress was learning to be comfortable with myself in the right ways, which in turn kicked off me trying to improve myself in others. Hopefully I can keep the weight going down and keep progressing in my career.
Otherwise, I'm still just a turbonerd who likes video games and other #####.
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